Stream of consciousness v.2006127
So earlier today in school, I left a dent at the top of my thermos after I threw it down the hall. Why? Because I got quite a bit upset. So for the record: I will attend my high school reunion when the time comes, but there is no fucking chance in hell that I will attend any UBC CHBE reunion. Ok I take that back, but I'm strongly leaning towards not going. Engineers tend to be a pretentious bunch and it really annoys me. I talked to a friend on msn afterwards and she wasn't too impressed (she was there to hear the thermos throwing incident) although she could understand why I did what I did. Ultimately we’re good and I’ll have to apologize to another guy tomorrow. The problem is I’m in a precarious position concerning allies, which I do not wish to discuss until a certain amount of time has passed after graduation. I can’t help it when I have an emotional outburst. Maybe it’ll get better with age. I think there’s a general misconception that I’m completely unemotional, which is somewhat warranted. I don’t really show emotion unless it’s a strong emotion. For example, if I’m only a little happy or sad, then I’ll be in my neutral state. But if I’m really happy or angry, then it’s obvious to others how I’m feeling. That’s another thing, most people when they are angry, they’re really just throwing a hissy fit whereas I become violent and confrontational. Recipe for disaster I know. Normally, I’d shrug off those comments (ie the one that got me upset here) but I was consumed with frustration (stupid homework and comments made by people) which left me very irritable. Anyways, some people probably think even less of me now, but I really could not give a flying fuck what they think. It’s not like we talk and I wouldn’t even ask for their help even in the most dire situation. Just have to survive for a bit longer and I hopefully will never have to see some of these people ever again. Well I should try finishing some work now before I go to bed.
posted by Edward @ 1:58 AM
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